on walking me home. I was horrified but finally fig- ured that I could get rid of him on the way, or at least brush him off at the entrance to my apartment.
At my door, I became adamnant and refused to let him in. This game of deception had gone too far al- ready and I had visions of getting into real trouble with the cowboy and even with the police if he ever discov- ered the truth. In the maelstrom of the milling mass of festive humanity, my pretending to be a girl was al- right and right in tune with the spirit of the occasion. But in private, and with this manly cowboy it could be interpreted as something else and I wanted nothing at all to do with that kind of trouble.
Now to my startled amazement the cowboy grabbed me tightly and planted a long passionate kiss on my full carmined lips. At first I was shocked, but almost immediately I felt something strange happening to me. This was too much far more than I had ever bargained for. I struggled free of his embrace and unlocked the outer door. Now the cowboy grabbed me again. His right hand held my left elbow from the back keeping it straight. His left hand held two of my fingers on my left hand bent sharply back. Any attempt on my part to struggle only resulted in terrible agony in fingers which felt as if they were about to break off.
In his grip, I had to lead him to my apartment and open the door with my free hand. Once inside he re- leased me from his punishing grip and again enveloped me in his arms. I was in a whirling panic as this man would undoubtedly give me a terrible beating when he discovered that I was not a seductive and alluring young girl, but only a frightened young man masquerading as What alarmed me even more was the fact that I could feel myself reacting to his kisses in a way I would never have anticipated.
one.
Now I struggled again to escape his embrace using all my strength and agility to free myself from his dis- turbing caresses. I thrust my hands against his chest, pushing away and to my surprise, I found my hand clasp- ing to full firm feminine breasts. Now I noted that there was no roughness on his cheeks, such as appears on any man very soon after the closest shave. As I
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